He's Jakvar's freakin' apprentice! I just...part of me feels like it's my fault. Why did I leave Bhaile? I should've been there for Ean. If I had stayed, I could've prevented this. I know I was in shock and saw the devastation and just assumed everyone died but...I should've stayed.
I started to lose all hope for Ean when Jakvar showed up after we killed the dragon and I confronted Ean. I mean, he didn't care that I dug up Father's grave, and he chose this life of his. I thought I had lost him again. But then, Ean stayed behind after Jakvar leaves.
I played our family's lullaby as a parting gift for him on Father's lyre (it was always his favorite). I pleaded with him to leave behind this life he chose. He said he wished he could. He doesn't think he could ever completely get away from Jakvar's clutches. He gave me a sending stone and then told me that Father's lyre is not just any lyre but it's actually Eqiasteo, Lyre of the White Duke, a vestige of divergence (Calo would be happy to study it I'm sure). He also said that his "group" knows what we and our enemy are doing and offered help if we need it. We hugged and then...he left.
I feel guilty, used, overwhelmed, betrayed, defeated, and...a bit hopeful. My brother is still in there and he loves me. I'm sure there's a way to convince him to give up this twisted apprenticeship and be free of Jakvar. If it means killing Jakvar then so be it. I just hope it doesn't involve killing Ean because I have a feeling that if he did die, he wouldn't be willing to come back.
We're in Ank'Harel again after a hasty escape from the lair to avoid more dragons. I feel a need to visit my family's graves and spend some time alone.
Oh ya...Ean didn't keep his promise to properly celebrate our reunion.
Beruinn Lullaby:
https://drive.google.com/file/d/1Emp7Zexx_niTAz9WGKi6DwBGUKcCJ6dV/view?usp=sharing
