Sunday, January 31, 2021

Dodging Bulettes...

 28 Brussendar, 83X


At times Halainna would look off to the north sometimes with a wistful smile and other times with great sorrow. This has always been something of a mystery to me. Returning to one's homeland should be a joyous thing. Home and family are of the greatest importance whether it be the home and family that we were born to or the ones that we create through our life. 

While waiting in the inn we found out that the village that Halainna grew up in was just a half days travel by camel from here. We were all so excited to be able to see where she grew up. There seemed to be a bit of sadness as the memories came both those bidden as well as unbidden. At first, she seemed hesitant to go, but with our encouragement, Halainne was perswaded to make the short journey home. Home a place to return to as we grow old, and what should always be the safest of places in our heart.

29 Brussendar, 83X 

The excitement of seeing Halainne home was quickly tempered by the cursed desert. It seems hotter than forges of Kraghammer, and how anyone finds these thrice-cursed beasts they call a camel comfortable to ride is beyond me. The hump on their backs is no place to sit let alone having it swaying back and forth in the heat of the day while keeping watch. As we traveled to Halainna's village we were set upon by what the locals refer to as a bulette. They are some sort of landshark that is able to burrow through the sand and dirt. These bulettes must-have figure that we would be easy prey as so few of us were traveling in our party. Two of them burst forth from the sand on either side of us attempting to divide our attention. What they didn't consider was that two of Moradin's faithful were in their midst. As they burst forth, I called upon the powers of the All-hammer to aid us and hold the beast while my companions dealt with the one to the south. In short work, Knac and Ollie dealt with the threat and we were able to continue our journey on to the village of Bhaile.

In the almost 7 years that she has been absent the town has made tremendous progress towards rebuilding. The town center and the surrounding area are beautiful in their determination to make a life here. They are simple folk, the kind that brings you joy just to think upon them. I can see why Halainne has held on so dearly to the memory of this place. It is a good place. After meeting with  some of the local leadership we are left with more questions than answers as the what occurred during that night. The night left our poor Halainne an orphan and ripping her from those that she holds so dear. Arrangements have been made to visit the graves of her father and mother, and I have offered to be their mouthpiece. Through this communion, we hope to help Halainne gain the answers that she no desires and bring some needed closure to the tragedy of that night.

30 Brussendar, 83X

          Communing with those who have moved on can be such an emotionally trying experience, however, I genuinely believe that this was the purpose the Moradin has granted me this blessing. Through it, the most beautiful of bonds as strong as steel can be forged. This is what we witnessed today. There was not a soul that went untouched as Halainne spoke again with her mother and father. To hear of their love for her and their hope for her in this life have also bound our group together. Halainne song was so touching and moving that, I felt Moradins hands guiding mine as I worked the stone to make proper maker for their grave.


Saturday, January 30, 2021

Home

We have some time before we reach Rexxentrum where my brother is most likely to be.  I still can't believe that he survived.  Thinking about him and home is bitter sweet and it's hard to completely express how I feel with words. Maybe writing my feelings in a musical way will do the trick. And, who knows, maybe the Archheart will accept it as a token of my gratitude for his help in bringing Calo back to us.


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Saturday, January 23, 2021

I rode through the dessert on a goat with no name

My eyes slowly open as the light seems so blinding, but it is not bright just... new? How can it be new? Slowly memories start to make their way through the fog. The battle and an opponent that we weren't ready to face. We had him trapped, but no matter what we did we were just as cut off from him as he was from us. Then he was free, and we faced him, sometimes we had the better of him, most often he had us on the run, but we stood firm. Then...

I...

DIED!!!

Frantically I start to looking around. I see the face of my friend, those that I call my family, my clan. Their relieved faces looking back at me as the realization starts to take hold. I was dead. So, it wasn't just a vision I was There. My soul was upon the anvil of Moradin, the All Hammer. My metal was found to be strong and pure enough to be accepted into the halls of Valhalla. There is peace in that knowledge and I know that I am here again I will continue to live worthy of that. But why do I feel off?

There is feeling as though something is missing or is it that things are different after one dies. Ollie, I really need to talk to him. He has been through this, he will understand.

What does it mean that part of my soul is gone? It is like he kept a piece for himself a trophy of his murders. I feel so violated. Knowing that he has quite literally a piece of me. Something that was never his to take, is that why murder is so foul and reprehensible? When it is committed it we are not only ending the life of someone early before they can have the opportunity to work out the dross of their lives but we also take from them a portion of themselves that can not be replaced. Can it be replaced?

Is this why I feel disconnected from the Forge of Creation? I used to feel as though I knew His rhythms and could hear the hammer as it fell upon each of us shaping the world and out souls. Remaking us into something better. Now it is there, it still felt, but I must search for it now. It doesn’t come as readily. What will this mean? I don’t not believe that he has forgotten or withdrawn, but there is toll that is taken upon all when an injustice like this has been committed. There is a price that is paid one that causes the scales of justice to not just tip but to swing heavily. When the scales are so out of balance how does one bring them back into balance again.

 

We are on our way to Rexxenturm. The wild magic of this place has lost its luster. I was warned that there will be a price to pay for the loss of that portion of my soul. We still don’t know what means, but I am not willing to try things here in this place where a simple cantrip can cause a river to appear. No not here. Physically, I am regaining my strength and I can swing the hammer as well as before, but my connection to Moradin still seems faint. Why? What does it mean?

Why is my heart so glad to see the Greasy Troll? What ever the reason I am glad, to see everyone again, even Fume. He always makes me chuckle with his antics. I am looking forward to the next few days. The solitude of the sea will be a great place to meditate on all that has taken place.


Saturday, January 16, 2021

Of death and rebirth

tink ta tink

tink ta tink

I must draw him away. No matter what happens here, I am not the one who must survive this encounter.

tink ta tink

tink ta tink

If only I can reach my hammer. Moradin may hear and answer my prayer. There it is, I am almost there.

tink ta tink

tink ta tink

There is no pain that can’t be endured as long as one holds true. Now is not the time to sleep. There will be time for rest when they are safe.

FIGHT!!!

tink ta tink

tink ta tink

I cannot rest now. I must keep him distracted. But I am so tired…

tink ta tink

tink ta tink

Just as easily as blowing out a candle the world fades. Yet in the darkness, I do not fear for the sound of the forge still goes on and as long as I can hear the forge, I know that I have done his will.

tink ta tink

tink ta tink

The sound of souls finding their temper. The steady hammering of his hammer as it removes the dross from our lives.

tink ta tink

Tink Ta Tink

I can hear it louder and clearer now. The heat hot and searing but I do not fear it, I welcome the heat as it drives away the injustices I have committed, my laziness, and cowardness.

Tink Ta Tink

Tink Ta Tink

The searing white light begins to fade as I stand upon the anvil of Moradin. I stand there before the All Hammer stoic as I await the final strike of the hammer to test my soul's temper.

Tink Ta Tink

Tink Ta Tink

The hammer lands. Then just as quickly there is a cold that washes over me. I feel everything contract and set.

The quench.  

The final test to see if my metal is true and strong enough to stand for all time in the halls of Valhalla. Will I be found worthy?

There is no more hammering only silence now as I am inspected for the smallest of cracks.

Then the HE speaks, “Calo Grizad though your life was cut short you have spent your days in my service and have shown yourself worthy to enter Valhalla and rest in my labors.”

A path begins to form at my feet. With joy and peace knowing that my life was not spent in vain. I start along my new path to the halls of Valhalla. My pace in time with the hammering of a new soul.

tink ta tink

tink ta tink

With each footfall, the worries and memories of mortal cares are replaced with a greater divine purpose and strength.

tink ta tink

tink ta tink

My foot lifts and suddenly there are two paths. One continues onward, the other… The other almost seems to return. But return where and to who or what?

tink ta tink

tink ta tink

I am hesitant. Why would there be another path? Where does it lead? Why here? Why now?

Tink Ta Tink

Tink Ta Tink

There is an urgency in the hammering now, as though I must choose. But how does one choose the known versus the unknown?

TINK ta tink

TINK ta tink

I strain my eyes peering to see what is further down the path. I see sorrow and pain. Worry and loss. But who are they? A clan? My clan?

TINK TA tink

TINK TA tink

A tabaxi, a high elf, a couple of half-elves, and a dwarf. This is unlike any clan I have seen and yet I KNOW that they are my clan. Then I hear her voice as though spoken directly to my soul “Calo, I hope you come back.”

TINK TA TINK

TINK TA TINK

I must choose. I must choose NOW. My clan needs me and how can I not answer their plea. I know that each of them has sacrificed of themselves to petition Moradin for my return. My foot falls.

tink ta tink

tink ta tink

As the path slowly turns back on itself, I look over to see HIM hammering steady as the mountains. He glances at me and I catch a slight nod and smile as a jackapeasalope sits upon a shelf behind him. I could have sworn that wasn’t there before.

tink ta tink

tink ta tink


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